Narrow minded worms

Bweh..it seems the pounding of stupid humanity is taking its toll. Like im working at this one bank, and it turns out a person seeks for assistance. Meh, so like

"Yeah, sure how can I assist?"

The dude then passes the phone to his wife and Wham! 30mins lecture...

Hell, im trying to assist here and you just shove up preachings and stuff i already know. And the damn husband, he knows the current status of the problem (we called him earlier) and did not bother to inform the wife. THANK YOU! Such a nice caring husband..(i sense 'Queen Control') Now the wife is furious, any info i give her she disregards it and thinks im after her money and shit like that..the eff?

Fine, ill investigate it. Put down the phone, ran around, made some calls, pull some legs and guess what, the item was delivered prior from the date but no one was around to pick it up. Ahh..so it was their fault, so i came with a solution, asked special authorization for confirmation, double check on the matter with another department and called her back. Feeling delighted that i could solve the problem, i ended up getting another 10min lecture..

She debated that its not her fault and blame for poor service and shit like that. Maam, im trying to help you here and i stake my name for it..and what do i get?

"You people so stupid lah, why dont use courier to send ah? Of course saya takda kat rumah masa tu, lunch hour la!"

Like hellooo? Did you state what time you want the item to be delivered? No. Did you even admit it was at ure end who didnt receive it and it was your mistake? NO! And, when I asked, did they give you any memo to retrieve the item from the posting service? She replied..

"Ure system stupidlah, x boleh bagi je ke?

You know what, F**K you. We need you to sign it for security purposes. Why do you think complicated system like these exists? Ah, and she didnt even bother about searching the memo. Lazy bitch..

And if you threat to cancel account because of that, be my guest, and i will gladly be the first person in line to cancel it within 24hours!

The Undenying Feeling

It has been months

Not hearing ure steps into my heart

Its undeniable that you are still walkin in my heart

It has been months

Not hearing you knockin into my mind

Its undeniable that you are still engulfed in my mind

It has been months

Not feeling ure hugs within my soul

Its undeniable that you are the one who completes my soul

It has been months

Not feeling you keep warm my faith

Its undeniable that you are the one who cherishes my faith

Now it has been a year

Watching you smile makes me happy inside

Watching you laugh brings me joy of how lovely you are

Now it has been a year

Seeing you from afar is enough for me

Seeing you walk by somehow motivates me

Has it been a year?

I dont remember how long it has been...

And i dont care of how long time will take...

The undenying feeling is still there

The undenying fact is also still lingering there

Stubborn i am

To love i am not

Guilty i am

To reach on i am not

Because...i want you to be happy without me

A Night Without Stars

Wind brews under the silent day..

Waiting the lights of hours to close..

Darkness flows as the sun bows away..

The blanket night awakened as tiny sparks arose..

Curled and half asleep the sparks lay may..

Seeing no light it began to sprung free..

Dazzled and twinkled it flew and sway..

Finally with withered wings and sparks of life, the star gives way..

It twinkles and gives life to thee..

Mingles and together it embraces the night..

Brighten the sky without the suns plea..

A night without stars brings paleness and unsoughtful sight..

And in life we see stars..

And in life we are in nights..

Even though we are sometimes measured in hours..

But in life, happiness and joy are under our might..

Therefore...embrace your STARS..

Therefore...cherish your NIGHTS..

Because life is meant to be short..

And life is meant to be enjoyed..

God bless and smile always~

Twisted Arrogance

Pride, full I am with

To act and dance with mind

To decide and adjust with wisdom

But simple plain logic never corresponds with emotions

Was I wrong when i thought it was right?

Egoistic, one of man's true nature

To accept defeat, close never to say

To feel blamed, a hardly never feat

But being egoistic never is a partner with emotions

Was I wrong to to be selfish for the sake of others?

Words, bliss or dismay it can carry

To portray a hearts content to an exceeding limit

To curse a soul if bias is in practice

But with words, one lexis may intertwine differently with emotions

Was I wrong in trying to express my immature sentiments?

Curse thy heart and thy acts

Curse thy pride and thy nature

Forever curse thy words..

However, I cursed them too late..

Twisted arrogance has a price

And that price I have to live with

I am sorry.

Blissful Ignorance

A heart wished to be cared
And heart it is to be loved
Which both may find twined
In between fated lines of hope

I wish to care foremost
And I wish to hold at most
But to love I curse almost
As the passions remains gone without further hosts

For care can be tolerated
For love could be lost
In this parody of life
I find thy heart rot nearly almost

Plagued may I be tortured
Succumbed may I feel lost
But it may not compare to thee's pain
Which may I inflicted in thee's heart..deep below..

A word of forgiveness?
A plea for gratitude?
A thought of belongliness?
I am unworthy..

Inevitably?

I believed..
That in time, wounds would heal,
Making it bearable to live on,
And go on with my daily chores,
But..yet knowing that..
Why does it ache so bad?

I hoped..
That the decision was obsolete,
Whats best for both,
And whats good for future growth,
But still..with knowing all that..
Why does that forsaken feeling remain?

I really believed..
That strength comes from within,
A thrust that repels much negativity,
To deny the sorrow and hate,
But..yet knowing that..
Why do I feel my wall crumbling day by day?

I really hoped..
Life is full with wonders
That each door awaits different fates
Each turn of chapter of existence should be cherished
But still..with knowing all that..
Why can't I go through this particular facade?

I know I am human
And I know I am still trying
But much grief has caught me..
And I hope this flood won't drown me..inevitably?