Inevitably?

I believed..
That in time, wounds would heal,
Making it bearable to live on,
And go on with my daily chores,
But..yet knowing that..
Why does it ache so bad?

I hoped..
That the decision was obsolete,
Whats best for both,
And whats good for future growth,
But still..with knowing all that..
Why does that forsaken feeling remain?

I really believed..
That strength comes from within,
A thrust that repels much negativity,
To deny the sorrow and hate,
But..yet knowing that..
Why do I feel my wall crumbling day by day?

I really hoped..
Life is full with wonders
That each door awaits different fates
Each turn of chapter of existence should be cherished
But still..with knowing all that..
Why can't I go through this particular facade?

I know I am human
And I know I am still trying
But much grief has caught me..
And I hope this flood won't drown me..inevitably?