Tainted decisions.

Like yeah, once awhile updating my blog. Its a habit, I know.

A turn of events; where a kept ticking bomb recently blew. Well, I knew it was coming but then again, its inevitable as putting up a farce for too long is making me sick.

Alas, it was out, felt a sudden relief but lost something so precious that i thought, why did I do it? But it has happen, a past drama event that would scarce and overplay for it has tore a bond and trust that has so long been given.

For now, I am unforgivable..i know and im deeply sorry for it. I shall take solitude from this bond as a memento of how torn and twisted my roots have become due to my past immature decisions and greed.

Im tired...gimme a dime

Getting occasionally sick seems to be a norm nowadays. Not that i seek for it but it sometimes it has its funny own way of reaching out to me. Never the less, i kind of find it soothing at once when you actually have your own sweet time to think for yourself for once when you are on sick leave.

Work probs, family probs, social probs..sigh, i feel damn wreck at times where i can't just find a solution to work it out..so sometimes its better to close your eyes, ears and thoughts for half a day and play with my own little world..theoritically.

Was extremely busy for the past few weeks, but its gonna get heavier next week. When im done with all that shiz, i need a break..just to reorganize my mind on what im missing: A life!

You just don't see it, don't you?

Man..should I complain? I get worked up like hell and for me to proceed, i just requested one thing and still i receive excuses..I hate to be the person to say "I told you so!" but come on..ain't it that obvious?

So yeah, i got choices to make. I love my things but im not a mannequin who just do what they are told. Even mannequins have limits no? 4 person have the access but only 2 can properly manage. IF both of these are not around, you think then is a better time to train a new one? I asked a trainee a week ago and till now, none..goodluck for next week :(

Connecting the Dots?

Yeah its been awhile..

Been busy with work and life and forgot to write stuff..man,I must be damn rusty now huh?

Well, life is kinda in a straight line. With bits of edge here and there, some bumps but still one long straight road to go through. It made me think though, with a blank routine like that, am I just connecting the dots and living a passive life?

A steady life? You can say that. But to be walking a straight line all the way doesn't feel just right. Stress has overburden the physique and the damage has taken its toll. To reduce stress and pressure is something i sought to do? Probably yes.

L4D2 anyone? Okay..add some exercise to it too? Sounds healthy enough :P

Narrow minded worms

Bweh..it seems the pounding of stupid humanity is taking its toll. Like im working at this one bank, and it turns out a person seeks for assistance. Meh, so like

"Yeah, sure how can I assist?"

The dude then passes the phone to his wife and Wham! 30mins lecture...

Hell, im trying to assist here and you just shove up preachings and stuff i already know. And the damn husband, he knows the current status of the problem (we called him earlier) and did not bother to inform the wife. THANK YOU! Such a nice caring husband..(i sense 'Queen Control') Now the wife is furious, any info i give her she disregards it and thinks im after her money and shit like that..the eff?

Fine, ill investigate it. Put down the phone, ran around, made some calls, pull some legs and guess what, the item was delivered prior from the date but no one was around to pick it up. Ahh..so it was their fault, so i came with a solution, asked special authorization for confirmation, double check on the matter with another department and called her back. Feeling delighted that i could solve the problem, i ended up getting another 10min lecture..

She debated that its not her fault and blame for poor service and shit like that. Maam, im trying to help you here and i stake my name for it..and what do i get?

"You people so stupid lah, why dont use courier to send ah? Of course saya takda kat rumah masa tu, lunch hour la!"

Like hellooo? Did you state what time you want the item to be delivered? No. Did you even admit it was at ure end who didnt receive it and it was your mistake? NO! And, when I asked, did they give you any memo to retrieve the item from the posting service? She replied..

"Ure system stupidlah, x boleh bagi je ke?

You know what, F**K you. We need you to sign it for security purposes. Why do you think complicated system like these exists? Ah, and she didnt even bother about searching the memo. Lazy bitch..

And if you threat to cancel account because of that, be my guest, and i will gladly be the first person in line to cancel it within 24hours!