Tainted decisions.

Like yeah, once awhile updating my blog. Its a habit, I know.

A turn of events; where a kept ticking bomb recently blew. Well, I knew it was coming but then again, its inevitable as putting up a farce for too long is making me sick.

Alas, it was out, felt a sudden relief but lost something so precious that i thought, why did I do it? But it has happen, a past drama event that would scarce and overplay for it has tore a bond and trust that has so long been given.

For now, I am unforgivable..i know and im deeply sorry for it. I shall take solitude from this bond as a memento of how torn and twisted my roots have become due to my past immature decisions and greed.

Im tired...gimme a dime

Getting occasionally sick seems to be a norm nowadays. Not that i seek for it but it sometimes it has its funny own way of reaching out to me. Never the less, i kind of find it soothing at once when you actually have your own sweet time to think for yourself for once when you are on sick leave.

Work probs, family probs, social probs..sigh, i feel damn wreck at times where i can't just find a solution to work it out..so sometimes its better to close your eyes, ears and thoughts for half a day and play with my own little world..theoritically.

Was extremely busy for the past few weeks, but its gonna get heavier next week. When im done with all that shiz, i need a break..just to reorganize my mind on what im missing: A life!

You just don't see it, don't you?

Man..should I complain? I get worked up like hell and for me to proceed, i just requested one thing and still i receive excuses..I hate to be the person to say "I told you so!" but come on..ain't it that obvious?

So yeah, i got choices to make. I love my things but im not a mannequin who just do what they are told. Even mannequins have limits no? 4 person have the access but only 2 can properly manage. IF both of these are not around, you think then is a better time to train a new one? I asked a trainee a week ago and till now, none..goodluck for next week :(

Connecting the Dots?

Yeah its been awhile..

Been busy with work and life and forgot to write stuff..man,I must be damn rusty now huh?

Well, life is kinda in a straight line. With bits of edge here and there, some bumps but still one long straight road to go through. It made me think though, with a blank routine like that, am I just connecting the dots and living a passive life?

A steady life? You can say that. But to be walking a straight line all the way doesn't feel just right. Stress has overburden the physique and the damage has taken its toll. To reduce stress and pressure is something i sought to do? Probably yes.

L4D2 anyone? Okay..add some exercise to it too? Sounds healthy enough :P